A Walk That Hurts

Waking up in the morning listening to the sounds of the rain pouring out, I was happy for some unknown reason. Maybe it was a good dream that I saw which I obviously don’t remember, or maybe I just feel happy internally which is very strange. The reason remained unknown but I had a feeling it’d be a good day.

Boy was I wrong.

I put my feet down on the floor and stand up to only start feeling pain. Where is the pain coming from? Don’t know. What kind of pain is this? Don’t know either. My mind was asking too many questions and the answers were all unknown. Then it was only while I was sitting on my bed that I realized that it was my left foot which was screaming.
I look down and everything seems fine. I stood up and started walking and found my left foot refusing to touch the ground the way a kid refuses it’s veggies. (Okay even I do that at times but let’s stick to kids now)

While I reach the living room I realize what has happened.
I have managed to hurt my left ankle!

I thought I had just pulled a muscle and disregarded it. Just like I always do. But this time it was my biggest mistake.

Because in the evening my foot had swollen a teeny bit and the pain had reached new heights. I have only now realized that I have sprained my leg.

How did this happen? Why did this happen? When did this happen? Will I ever be able to walk again? What if I have to cut my leg off? Is this something big? Is this a symptom of a disease?
So many useful and useless questions were being asked. I started over-analyzing the situation like I always do and thought it was something huge and freaked myself out! But obviously it wasn’t a huge deal.

You see, I have always boasted about how I have never fractured a bone or hurt myself. This is the very first time I’m experiencing something of this sort so I started jumping to conclusions. Typical me.
There are firsts for everything right? Right?

It’s been two days now and I feel like I’m a lab rat for my mom’s experiments with home remedies. I’ve screamt so much that I’ve amazed myself at my lung’s capabilities. I’ve been in a lot of pain. A lot.

What bothers me the most is my incapability to walk. Yes I get people to do my work for me which is awesome! But I can’t even go to the kitchen to get me some food without going through pain. A simple task like walking would hurt me so much is something I never thought is even possible!

I walk only on one foot. I literally drag my left foot with me wherever I go. It looks like fun but let me tell you, it is NOT fun. I want to cry!

Give me a cane and a bottle of Vicodin pills and you have a female version of Dr. House infront of you. Minus the intelligence of course.

It’s day three today and my pain has reduced a lot. Looks like the experiments are working. But my walking it still funny. I used to trip over nothing before and I still do now. Nothing’s changed maybe? I don’t know.

All of this has taught me the importance of my legs though. Must admit that and appreciate them too!

Have you ever experienced something like this yourself? Share your experiences and you won’t win anything. But you won’t lose anything either right?

The Pros And Cons Of Falling Sick

It’s been days since I’ve fallen sick. It started out with a common cold which has now resulted in the worst cold I’ve ever had in my life until now. I can say that with confidence as I have a lot of experience with falling sick. Trust me on that one.

Growing up I was that kid who falls ill every other day. In these 365 days that make a year, around 60 days was when I was healthy – no exaggeration here. My immune system was a serious joke, I couldn’t even call it an immune system!
My memories from the age of 1 till 8 are all about me falling sick. During the days when I din’t fall sick, I used to feel really weird. I was so used to falling sick that the idea of feeling healthy seemed strange.

But not to worry now. My immune system does its job quite well now. I still remember in 4th grade when the teacher told me that I had full attendance I went, “What? Did this just happen?” My teacher had a really puzzled look on her face and maybe in that moment she thought I went crazy. I won’t blame her for thinking that.
It’s not like I don’t fall sick at all now. That’s never gonna happen. It’s just that the frequency rate is quite a bit low. I only fall sick when the weather changes and when I eat something my stomach still doesn’t accept in it’s land. And that’s so much better for me.

As you can see, a lot of my life’s experiences are related around illnesses. So since my body is still in recovery from this annoying cold which has given me a fever, a sore throat, a runny nose, a back pain and a head ache -all in the span of five days – I thought it’s a good time to share with you all some of my expertise. After all that’s why we are here, to share our pain with each other. When I know I can make you suffer by making you read this poorly written post then I’m not going to miss out on this opportunity. I suffer so you suffer. Muahahaha

Now falling sick isn’t all that bad. You do get a lot of benefits from this. And as all the wise people have said, we need to look at the positive side of the bad stuff happening to us which will help us find a way through it all. They din’t exactly say this but I’m pretty sure it’s something along these lines.

So now you and me are going to go through the pros of falling sick :

1. The Royal Treatment – Since you are incapable of doing things for yourself, the people around you readily do it for you. This obviously means that you have to do absolutely nothing. You can just lay in bed and ask someone to pass you the book that is in the shelf near you, and they will come running from the other room to do just that. It’s the perfect time to be lazy.
2. Getting to sleep the day through – We everyday complain about how much we lose out on sleep because of our hectic schedules. Even the weekend sometimes gets too cramped up with so much to do. Since our body is already too weak, you can easily go to sleep without any fuss. Nobody and nothing is going to disturb your precious sleep.
3. All the food you want – You get to eat a lot of food and no one is going to complain about that. Whatever you want, you get it. From soup to cake – everything. Except cold stuff. Why would you want something cold in the first place? Aren’t you ill? Oh wait….you can’t eat everything. Few exceptions can be made right?
4. Temporary leave from the horrid places – You get to take leave from wherever it is you’re supposed to be. Either the office or school. You’re free! And when you go back, you have a whole new energy inside of you. Let’s be honest, it’ll get drained out the minute you set foot into the place again – but let’s leave that out right now.
5. Unleashing the anger 
– Do you know about all that anger which you have been suppressing inside of you from the past months (or maybe years)? The ones that were caused by either some nagging relative or by that annoying colleague at your work place? You never are able to let it all out but looks like the golden opportunity has now arrived. You can let all of your anger out on basically anyone without worrying that you are going to upset them. Why? Because they know you are sick so they are going to forgive you. They won’t even take your outbursts seriously. Such a relief for you isn’t it?

 

Now we need to get to the darker side of all this. The negatives of falling ill are a lot. Like a lot. So let’s get to them now. Together of course. I’m not leaving you now.

1. Life sucked out of the body – That cold has eaten up every bit of life that remains in your body. You forget what walking feels like. Do not even talk about the energy levels. They are at a whole new level of low. Wait a minute. What is energy? I don’t remember feeling energetic. Are you saying I used to be energetic once? That was a lifetime ago mate.
2. Plastic surgery might be a requirement – At least that’s what you think. Your face is discolored. You’ve actually become pale and if your friends visit you then they are going to crack jokes about how you may have turned into a vampire. In a matter of days you feel like your face has changed shape. You look at yourself in the mirror and scream, “That’s not me! Who is this person? That’s not meee!!”
3. The weird feeling of being tired – Feeling tired is the weirdest feeling ever you experience when you’re sick. Why? Because how in the world can you get tired by doing absolutely nothing? You’re just laying in bed and now you’re tired? What is happening?
4. Losing out on sleep – As I said in the pros – you can sleep to your heart’s content. But somehow you just can’t. This is the only opportunity for you to sleep but your body refuses to do so. You’re so sleepy but still you can’t sleep. You try all sorts of things to fall asleep but everything goes to waste.

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5. The death of the beloved taste buds – You can eat anything you want but what’s the use when you can’t taste anything? Your favorite cake tastes bland. Pizza tastes like plain bread. Food isn’t food anymore. This is so cruel! I’m just going to sit by myself here and cry …..
6. Anger level = Hulk – Every little thing angers you. Even if you drop a drop of water you are going to get so angry you could punch a wall. You are not going to be able to get through the day with a straight face. You are not going to be happy. The only emotion you feel is anger.
7. Horrible tasting medicines – Do I really need to explain this?
8. Talk no more – I talk a lot. Really, really a lot. And this one hurts me a lot. I lose the ability to talk even when I get a slight fever. If I even try to talk, then I get really tired. If I have a sore throat then I lose my voice which is the most frustrating thing in this whole world for me. I want the ability to express myself through my voice. I need it!

By the looks of it, the cons outweigh the pros in this case. So here’s the lesson people – even if the good side seems brighter, do not fall sick. I repeat, don’t fall sick. It’s the most torturous thing in this entire universe. Try your level best to avoid getting hit by those bacteria that take over your body and make you feel less human.

And if your efforts to stay away from this situation fails miserably and you end up falling sick, then I’m here for you.

What are somethings that you experience when you fall sick?

My Younger, Ignoramus Self

So today’s post is dedicated to my younger self. Well, I’m obviously not that old. But here when I say young, I mean the 8 year old me. I think in internet terms, this qualifies as a ‘throwback’ post.

Recently, I bought a huge pack of Pringles. Considering the facts that I was eating it after an entire year and I love the chips to a very high extent, I was jumping around the house with the packet in my hand. When I then sat down to eat it, my mom laughed and told me, “You do know that when you were small you hated Pringles right? We used to have tons of it in the house, but you’d refuse to even pick one up, let alone try it!”

I was in utter shock when I heard this. I couldn’t believe what she just said.

I hated Pringles. I hated Pringles. I disliked any chips for that matter.

While I was trying to recover by eating chips, I went into flashback mode. And then I realized what a fool I was as a kid. Why you might ask? Because I hated everything. Everything. Well, except for cartoons. Thank God for that.

Since I have a good memory (thanks Dad),  I remember a lot about my years as a kid. Maybe it’s an advantage of having such a memory or a disadvantage, I don’t really know. But I’m kind of stuck with all this useless information. I quite well remember what kind of a kid I was, and it bothers me a lot.

I remember I used to be this really fussy kid who refused to eat anything. All the treats that kids my age would enjoy, were the stuff I happily refused to even try! In my mind, they were all bad and I ignored my parents who always wanted me to try all of this.

My dad used to get me huge boxes of expensive chocolates and sweet treats of various kinds. I’d have loads of junk food and aerated drinks at home because we had family friends who owned all kinds of businesses. And also my parents believed it’d help me gain weight. But I ignored all of these things, which I absolutely love now. I don’t really know why I was such a kid. I don’t think I was in the right mind. I’d like to believe that my brain was being controlled by my nemesis who lives in a parallel universe.

I remember seeing my refrigerator stuffed with a hundred boxes of chocolates and ice-creams. Literally hundreds of them. But I always refused to even try one of them. I would always have my grumpy face on and just run away to my room whenever someone offered me a chocolate. And as a result all the chocolates that I beg my parents now to get me, used to be given away to my relatives who din’t even know what they were.

I remember this uncle of mine, who always used to get me a Snicker bar whenever he visited me. This is what used to happen.

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Everytime!

It wasn’t always related to food you know? This ignorant side of me was prevalent for every single thing. And here comes another story.

When I was six, one of my friends gifted me a story book for my birthday. I really liked the cover of the book. It was really colourful and the pictures were really nice. For the first time I was interested in trying out something new, until I turned to the first page. It was hate at first sight. I just din’t want to read!
Many birthdays passed by, and I got a ton of books. I had a pile of them tucked away at some corner of a shelf. But I never touched even one of it as I never really wanted to read. Every time my mom used to clean the shelves, she would start sneezing really badly when the book shelf came next in line. That is how dusty it was because no one ever touched it.

I really was a weird, ignorant kid who hated everything fun. I din’t even like the word fun. I din’t like talking to anyone nor playing with anyone. I had this one best friend and I would only talk to her. Other than that, I only liked my cartoons and my school. Anything that din’t fit into these ‘interests’ of mine were discarded from my life with a click of my fingers. I never really took a step to at least try something new.

In short, this was me –

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If I could, then I would go back in time and smack my younger self (or defeat my nemesis so that I’d get the control of my brain back in my hands) which maybe will result in me being a better kid and then I would start actually enjoying what I had. I really feel so ashamed of my younger self most of the time.

I’ve obviously drastically changed now. I actually love chocolates so much that it is a significant part of me. The Snickers Bar that I used to hate with all my might is now my favourite chocolate bar. I love reading now and I cannot stand anyone mistreating books. The computer which was once my mortal enemy, is now what I love the most. So much that my career option has it in the center.

Well, right now I can’t do anything about my stupid younger self, but at least I learnt from my mistakes.
What are some things that you disliked about your younger self?

Things No One Should Say To Me Anymore

I think this week’s post’s title is self-explanatory. So I’m gonna skip the general 2 paragraph introduction I always give you. Why waste your time reading that, when you could spend your time productively? ( I know that when you read ‘productively’ you immediately thought of Facebook and Twitter. Yes I’m watching you. -cue evil laugh-)

I don’t know what is with people asking me weird and senseless stuff. Not to mention the nonsensical language that many speak in. Like hello, that is what I do okay?
Anyways, all this really irritates me to the point where I start making plans on how to kill them. To be honest, I get irritated by every little thing. I even get irritated at myself at times.
So today I’ve decided to take a step against this. Now I’ll list what all I have to go through on a regular basis. All the things I’m tired of hearing.

1. “How are you so thin? Give us tips please?”
I’m not so thin also. Have you seen others? As for the tips, if I knew wouldn’t I have already released a book and made millions out of it? If you think I have some sort of healthy lifestyle, then I’m sorry to pop your bubble *eats a Pringle* The only tip I can give you, is keep eating. Food is life. You shouldn’t ignore food.

2. “You are a foodie? What? How is it that you eat so much, but end up being so thin?”
You see, I’m blessed with something called a “high metabolism”. Just rub a lamp and ask the genie that comes out to bless you with a high metabolism too, okay? How much ever I eat, it doesn’t affect me. I sometimes feel that the more I eat, the more weight I lose! So now, why will I not take advantage of this and eat my heart out? Do I look like some sort of a fool to you? I’d be a fool if I wasn’t eating when I’m hungry. And I’m always hungry. ALWAYS.

3. “Why do you eat all unhealthy things? All the sweets, and junk food too! Do you not care about your health?”
Oh I’m sorry, I didn’t know that you only eat healthy food. Wait, you don’t? Then why you asking me huh? I’m actually advised my doctor to eat unhealthy food so that it’ll help me gain weight. I’m doing something good. So stop judging me and passing me comments you idiots.
Now,

I realize that there are two GIFS of Jennifer Lawrence here. But what to do, she understands my food situation  more than anyone out there. An amazing celebrity gets me. Now why will I not tell you that?

4. “What is your favourite food?”
How dare you ask me this question? How can you possibly ask me to choose? Food is food. You can’t command me. You can’t do that to me. And besides, what are you going to gain by knowing this huh?

5. “Why are you so short?”
I’m short because I gifted my height to you, so that you can become tall. I’m doing a good deed, so shut up and thank me now.
And also, being short has its advantages. I like being short. Wait a minute, there are people who are shorter than me! So are you telling me you waste spend your time by asking this question to every short person who crosses your path? Nice hobby I must admit.

Now you understand right?

6. “You’re  a nerd right? How lucky. You don’t have to study!”
Wow, what a nice logic. You surely have a brilliant brain. I wonder why you don’t get good grades….
Oh I know, it’s because you actually are plain stupid. You thought I was complimenting you? Another fact that proves you’re stupid. We nerds have to study more, because we have a reputation to keep up. Did that make sense to you now?

This how I react inside when such a question is asked.
I think I speak for all the nerds out there, here.

7. All the ‘cool’ words used while speaking. Meaning, all the “YOLO”s and “SWAG”s
I don’t know who created these words, but I think that is good because that person would probably be dead right now. Can you believe it? It’s 2014, and there are people who STILL say ‘YOLO’ for everything and anything. Have you sold your brain to someone, or is it on a permanent hiatus? If you think this makes you cool, then you have a bunch of ice-cubes for a brain. I’m so sorry to break this news to you.
Now stop using these words, please! Have some mercy on us!

Yes please!

8. “How many books have you read?” And all the other book-related questions.
Yes I’m a bookworm, but I’m a disgrace to all the bookworms out there because I haven’t read a lot of books. I have my reasons for that. But YOU can’t ask me such questions and make me feel bad okay? And how many ever books I’ve read, I don’t think I need to tell you. Why do I need to answer you? Do you really think I’m gonna answer these questions that you ask almost everyone? Have you ever even read a book in the first place?

9. “Why do you love certain celebrities so much? Why do you follow so many shows and fandoms?”
Remind me the next time I start following a celebrity to ask you for permission okay? Oh wait, I don’t need your permission. So then why does it bother you? The entertainment world entertains me more than your non-sense does. Now, doesn’t that make sense?

10. “What social networking sites are you on?”
Why do you want to know? So that you can annoy me there also? If I haven’t told you already, then it means I don’t want you to know. Why is it so hard to understand such simple things? Why?

So there you go. This is my list. I think there are more, but I can’t seem to recollect anymore at the moment. And now I realize that most of this is related to food. Well, that’s me.
Now it’s your turn. What are some of the things that annoy you the most?

Normal is not how I roll

Lately I have been observing my behavior and reactions with different people and I realized something which I should’ve known earlier.

Before you jump to conclusions, yes I did say observe. I do that a lot. I can assure you that I’m not crazy. We all have weird characteristics right?

Back to the point now. As I said, I learnt something about myself which I somehow failed to know earlier. What I’ve just come to know is that…

*dramatic pause*

I go to the extremes of my emotions. Like extremely extreme. I don’t have a balance. My emotions and characteristics never find the middle path. They are always either on one extreme or the other. Its like my brain doesn’t understand what ‘normal’ means.

Isn’t this your reaction right now?

For a better understanding, I will now list a few of them :

  • I pride myself on my maturity. I’m really mature for my age and so I don’t speak or act like the others. Reasons why I’m called a grandma by some friends of mine. But whenever I try to loosen up, I immediately act like a four year old kid. I’ll start asking unnecessary questions and start bugging everyone. My maturity will vanish in thin air and nobody can stop me from making weird faces. I won’t ever be ‘normal’ which is the middle to all this.
  • If you are ever to see me, you’ll either see me with a smile or a frown. I believe I don’t have a straight face. Okay, I do have one but it only comes to play when I’m sarcastic. Other than that, I’m either extremely happy or extremely sad. I will either laugh at anything and everything, or cry and whine about every small little detail. You’ll never find me in between these extremes. NEVER!
  • I’m an extremely serious person. I will take everything seriously. Even a supposed joke at times. I think you can blame my maturity for that. But when I’m not serious, I’ll start neglecting everything and anything. Nothing is of importance to me, even the factors that really need serious attention. I’m way to care free and the result is always bad.
  • Being a foodie, I love food and that is the only thing good about my monotonous life. You’d think that this might be normal, but the fact that leads me to eat food (hunger I mean) isn’t always the same. Either I’ll be so hungry that I start hearing whales, or I’m not hungry at all so I won’t eat anything. Does my stomach have a normal day of balance between hungry and not hungry like normal people do? Naah.
  • I’ll either be thinking way too much, or I won’t think at all. This affects my daily life the most. I wonder why though….
  • There are days when I’m all grumpy and I will hate each and everything, and then there are days when I’m super hyper and I will even start hugging my chair. Are you expecting a normal day? Ah well, you’re wrong.

I don’t know if the above make any sense to you, because I seem to have just listed a few things in the name of ‘explanation’ but honestly they make no sense. I bet you’re more confused than you were before because I seem to be so right now. I even think a few points serve the same purpose, but then there is me who will type it anyway.

See? I told you I don’t have a balance in my life! I just rambled right now because I feel like talking a lot. Most definitely I won’t be talking at all tomorrow.

If there is a road that divides into three more roads which is one road to the left. one to the right and one to the middle, I’m more likely to either go on the right or the left one even if the map says to go straight. Because that is just how I function. And there is nothing I can do to prevent this from happening!

Maybe this post’s aim was to tell you all how weird I am, or it just was a long pointless post – that’s for you to decide. But the main point is, yes I’m weird and have characteristics that are maybe unknown to mankind, but don’t we all have that? You have it too right? Right?

On being called ‘Funny’

We are just 3 days into the new year, and I witnessed a miracle! On the very first day, I was called ‘funny and hilarious’ and on the second day I made a friend of mine cry of laughter! This is nothing short of a miracle for me, and a great start to the New Year.

I know what you’re thinking. “What’s the big deal in being funny?” , “Why is she hyped about such a trivial thing?” or maybe something else but the fact is  that this is a huge thing for me.
Why you ask? Well people, story time starts now.

A long, long time ago (I mean nearly 6-7 years back, not a hundred years ago) I was pushed by my parents to make friends with people who crack jokes a lot and laugh at the smallest of things. This decision wasn’t an easy one to take, but they knew the time has arrived for me to know what laughter is. It was a risk they were taking, letting a serious person like me enter a different world where people engage in laughter rather than talking about sensible stuff. There was the danger of me getting diverted into the wrong direction. But still they took the brave decision and said, “You have to do this Keerthi. You have to.” My mom hugged me tight before letting me go to that wild school bus and told me to be brave and not fear the obstacles that would be placed in my path to this unknown world of laughter and jokes. I was scared, very scared. But I mustered up the little bit of courage I had in me and went to the last seat of the bus and told the species sitting there, “I want to know what laughter is is. Can you please make me laugh?”
Everyone was shocked. No one had ever heard me laughing. And this sudden request was very astounding to them as they felt they have a duty to do. And then a few phrases were spoken on which the entire bus started laughing. I could hear the echoes of laughter in that bus, and then felt that there are a few eyes looking right at me. I din’t know why.
I stared at them back and one girl said, “Why didn’t you laugh?” I said, “Why will I laugh?” That girl then replied, “That was a joke. It was hilarious and you din’t laugh?” I replied very firmly,”Wait a second. That was funny? What are you even saying? That was not at all funny! How could you all laugh at it?”

My exact reaction at that time

The entire bus was silent. No one could believe what I said. The entire morning and the afternoon in the bus was spent by the school’s most funniest girl trying to make me laugh but I din’t even smile.
Another girl then said, “Maybe you are one of those rare people who has a very high sense of humor. I bet you if you tell a joke the entire bus will laugh.” I gave this task a try but failed miserably. From then on, I’ve laughed at only a few jokes which people say were the best of the lot but I’ve never been able to make anyone laugh. Every game where making others laugh was the aim, was a miserable failure and a loss for me. I was called a different specie of the human kind and I believed them.

I laugh at jokes and other funny things more now, maybe because everyone is finally getting their humor levels up to my bar, but I was never successful at making one person laugh. And then came this blog. I was just being myself and a few friends came up and told me, “There are some really hilarious stuff in your blog posts” , or “That post was really funny” or the most common one – “This post cracked me up. It made me laugh!” My reply to all of them was, “WHAAAAT?!”

I din’t believe all this and was convinced that it was some sort of flattery because there is no possibility that the one who is known to dissect jokes to a point where there is no sense in it all, has now made people laugh. It’s not possible! But then came the night of 1st January 2014.

I was chatting with a friend of mine and just told something and she said, ‘OH MY GOD. THIS IS THE MOST HILARIOUS THING I’VE EVER COME ACROSS! From where did you come up with that?” I said, “It was just my brain. And I din’t intend for it to be funny!” And she said, “This was so funny, I was laughing for five minutes straight!” And I was dumbstruck. Did I really make someone laugh?
And the very same thing happened yesterday where I made another friend of mine laugh till her stomach hurt. Did I really do that?

If this the magic of 2014 or a result of myself watching videos by various Youtubers on YouTube, I really don’t know. But all I do know is that this is a moment of victory for me and I am going to celebrate this moment. Because who knows whether I will ever be able to do this again?

What did 2013 teach me?

Only a few more days are remaining for this year to get over and for another year to begin. I’m not gonna say the clichéd phrases such as “Oh My God this year passed by so fast!” or “Another year is getting over and I haven’t done anything in my life” because you and I both know that there is no truth in these irrelevant phrases. Every year has 365 days (or 366), 12 months, 8,766 hours (approx.), 525,949 minutes and 31,536,000 seconds. So there is no way that the year passed by fast. As for what you’ve done with your life, well only you know what you’ve done…

Now lets come to me. All I can say is that this year has proven to be quite an important one for me. It was like a roller-coaster ride with my highs and lows. And hopefully my all time high is going to approach very soon.
Anyways, this year saw a change in my family life, social life, educational life and also in my physical surroundings. In short, my whole life changed.

There was the major change of environment as we came back to India after me spending 16 and a half years in U.A.E. And well, that’s the cause of all the changes in my life. While most of the changes were bad, they did teach me a lot about me and my life. So I thought that as the year is nearing to an end, I think I should reflect on what all is it that this year has taught me.

  • I understood who I really am – From the past 5 years I’ve been known for who I was then. Being with the same people and never having time for myself, I was convinced that that was my true self. But when I came here ans got time to myself, I realized that I wasn’t who I was 5 years ago. I’ve changed a lot, and it is for the good.
  • I don’t have a best friend – I don’t have a huge group friends. The number of friends I have is equivalent to the number of fingers I have. I’ve always been close with them but I soon realized that the ‘best friend’ factor is missing from my life. Someone with whom I can share all the matters regarding me without any hesitation. The hunt is on though. Hopefully I’ll find one very soon!
  • My mom is the best thing in my life – All the times I wailed about why am I living such a life, she’s always been there with me. Whenever she has been upset, I’ve tried to cheer her up. We have become incredibly close this year. She’s always either fighting for me, fighting with me or laughing with me at various things and people. The level of respect I have for her has increased to infinity and I seriously don’t know what I would have done without her, or without all her courage and strength. I feel honoured that I am her daughter.
  • I will love chocolates for the rest of my life – My love for chocolates has increased now. Especially when I’m not able to eat them because they aren’t easily available here. Distance has made our bond stronger.
  • Don’t trust anyone too easily – I din’t really trust anyone easily before, but still my trust and friendship was broken with a few people. I think you can say that they forgot me when I shifted here. And to be honest, it hurt me a lot because I shared a large chunk of my life with them and now they just don’t talk to me like before. But I don’t care anymore because I believe it is their loss. They’re gonna miss me when I’m gone!
  • Apparently I’m funny – I’m always known as the serious one in my friend circle, hardly laughing at any jokes. But recently I’ve been called funny. I think it is a hidden talent of mine. Hidden because I haven’t found it yet!
  • There is no reason to be anxious around boys – I went to a girls school in U.A.E. and I din’t have a life outside school so I never had to face any boys so forget even talking. Now that I’m here and the school is co-ed and the place has so many boys around, my anxiety has disappeared. Yaaay!!
  • There is no harm in making new friends – Being socially-awkward, making friends isn’t very easy for me. But somehow I’ve mustered up a bit of courage and as a result I have new friends now!
  • It’s good to loosen up a bit – I’m a really serious person and I take everything seriously. My life has always been between the four walls of my room. But since last year, I’ve loosened up a lot. And for reasons as such I can enjoy life a bit more than I used to.
  • I have a really good memory – Someone asked me what my first memory was, and I said it is of my first birthday and everyone in that room was shocked. Time and again it has been proven that I have a really good memory. But I don’t why it doesn’t stay the same way for studies though…
  • I can forgive, but never forget – I had to do a lot of ‘forgive and forget’ this year. I always thought that I can do it easily but I can’t. I just can’t simply forgive someone let alone forget about it. Even if I do forgive someone, I just can’t forget what they did. Its not possible. Disadvantages of having a good memory I suppose.
  • Giving second chances is not my thing – When you have done something wrong to me, you can’t expect me to accept your apology and give you a second chance. What’s done is done. Giving you a second chance isn’t going to erase the fact that there was once something you did to me which wasn’t acceptable. And don’t tell me that ‘life gives you a second chance’. Life doesn’t give second chances to anyone. It only gives you new beginnings.
  • I have weird characteristics and habits – I’m not gonna elaborate on this. Nope.
  • The virtual world is a brilliant place – This virtual world has been the place where I turned to while I was sad, or the time when I was happy. Also the perfect world to fangirl. So this world has played a big role in my life so far.
  • Music means the world to me – Music has played an integral part of my life. Whether it was when I wanted to hit my brother on the head scream at my brother for annoying and irritating me so much, or when I wanted to transfer myself to a peaceful location, music has helped me do that.

So this is what this year has taught me, alongside a few trivial things which you needn’t know as you’d get bored even more. All in all, I’m thankful for this year because it taught me things I never thought I’d ever be able to learn. Some things are important in your life but you may never know. You’ll only realize their importance when you are forced to.

What did 2013 teach you? Was it something great, or something that you’ll never talk about ever again?